Not happy with myself.
I want to blog something fun, something that would bring joy to many but it feels like I’ve been drained. I was pretty cheerful all last week but I suppose there’s a limit (personally, any way). Some people I know are always cheerful. That’s amazing, and too often under-appreciated.
I think overall, I’m not too happy with who I have been the last couple weeks. I’ve become… annoying! I didn’t want to do the crazy amount of work I was assigned, and I much prefer talking to friends over doing SATs and homework, so that’s what I did almost everyday. I threw myself into Facebook, MSN, Tumblr, Skype, and texting. I’ve wasted countless hours, mostly just seeing who was online and… I don’t even remember! I just know that a lot of time was put into those social networking tools. There were times when I thought to myself “this is getting ridiculous. just stop.” and I tried to stop for a day and it surprises me how difficult it was to stop for even a day.
There will be some who understand what I’m talking about. These people will most likely be those who I talked to pretty much everyday the last couple weeks. Don’t get me wrong! I thoroughly enjoy talking to all of you!! I find that I enjoy it so much that it’s difficult to focus on my work.
This barely makes sense to me… I hope it makes more sense to you. Bottom line: I don’t know if you found me to be like this, but I found myself annoying. If you did, I apologize, and hopefully things will go back to normal very soon, during my exam week break.
Good luck with studying and life, friends.
*I’m surprised I’m posting this. I spent all day making a lighthearted post. It will be uploaded at a later date.