Quit.
^ I sure hope that’s not me in the near future…
SATs suck. Standardized testing sucks. They suck, they suck, they suck. Honestly, the two things that are keeping me going is:
1. The fact that my parents have already invested a lot of $$$ into preparing me for the read deal.
2. My parents will disown me if I quit.
You notice that there is nothing to do with me actually wanting to go to the states for a post-secondary education, right?
Well, that’s because I’m not so sure anymore. I don’t even know what I’m studying to become! If I at least knew what occupation I want to have as an adult, I would know what school I want to be in, so that I can start preparing to apply there.
It’s like this: it’s like I’m playing a sport with no objective. I’m sweating so hard, dribbling the ball or handling the puck, but I don’t know where to shoot. I have no idea where my goal is.
My reasoning: If I’m just good at everything, then my options are gonna be infinite! Then, when I do realize what I want to do, I can just choose that path out of the millions I’m going to have!
Reality: That’s fracking impossible. It’s too damn hard to keep all my options open at all times.
What to do now: I honestly don’t know. BUT! I will at least try to get my SAT score high as a freaking skyscraper. I’ve worked hard enough. I deserve a higher mark. I don’t know why I’m not. It’s sooooo lamez.
Most recent mark:
Math 630/800 (ew.)
CRIT. Reading 650/800 (ew.)
Writing 610/800 (w/o essay) (ew.)
Total: 1890/2400 (ewewewewewew.)
I will be posting my marks. It’s a way of accepting that I did terribly, or that I did well. Damn, I hope it’s the latter.
